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posted by caroline @ 11:46 am 0 comments

hate goodbyes

well i'm back in lovely freezing sydney (weird whether i tell ya -.-). it was a great 3 weeks. spent the first week in bundung, then went to cirebon for week 2, then back to bandung. most of the time i met up with my relos. they laughed at my indo, coz i sound funny (that's why i don't speak indo around my indo friends). anyhows i met my 2nd nieces + nephews (my cuz' kids). aww so cute.. they could speak a bit of english.. hehe.. cute =D amazingly i didn't get sick =O indo's know how to eat + eat + eat.. talk about eating 24/7. i wake up - i eat, i get picked up - let's go eat, i get dropped off somewhere - let's eat again, we go to a mall - guess what we do? we eat.. but we just ate an hour ago.. so? that was just a snack.. aiya.. but the food is awesome + cheap!! omgosh! seafood is sooooooo cheap.. i stuffed myself with crab, prawns, fish, clams in cirebon.. yummmo!!

it was fun crusing with my cousins at night.. going around bandung, didn't know where we were going.. one time, we ended up where u get corn bakar (forgot the name).. yumm..

anyhows i need to go back + do church stuff..

to be continued..

posted by caroline @ 12:46 am 3 comments

c h o i c e s .

what more can i say? in the past few weeks, all i heard was the word choices through the sermons i heard.

first was at challenge 2006 - deep water. i could only make it to the last night and james was preaching. he said that christian lives are based on choices, and i totally agree with that. but it's up to us to make the right decision in life. it was an amazing last session. he asked people tp move forward if they wanted to be prayed and without hesitation, most of us did move forward. i can say that people did turn back to God that night. awesome awesome night indeed!

the following week pastor leonardo came and did a special combine powerhouse on church on the move. once again - choices was the keyword for me that night. he is such a funny + jayus character.. to the point that made my head hurt. anyhows he was talking about how we as a church have a choice to move with God or stay behind. we have a choice to be satisfied with what we have, but we shouldn't. i thought that was powerful, coz i'm the type to stay in my comfort zone =S

and last sunday, pastor mutu from malaysian was our guest speaker in youth. amazing speaker! we went back to the garden of eden and how eve made a wrong decision for taking that fruit. he asked us if we knew what's right + wrong - and of coz we all said yes. then he said why do you still choose to follow the wrong path and that made me think + wonder. only two things are entered in your mind - the spirit of God and the spirit of the devil, the choice is then up to you. at the end of his sermon, he did an alter call. i didn't go up this time, but somehow he told me to come up + he prayed for me (twice) and his assistant prayed for me once (err.. am i that bad? lol). he did that with a few other people that didn't volunteer to come up as well. what he said/prayed was a bit of a 'huh?' but it wasn't surprise.. same with rhes.. and christina's one was funny - release release.. oh dear..

but i'm glad that these sermons was talking to me about choices, coz i think God wants me to realise that i do have to do the right thing, choose the right paths in my life. and until now, i can't comprehend how God loves each one of us unconditionally and can forgive us. God is love.

well that's all from me for now. have a blessed week! *muahz*

posted by caroline @ 11:55 pm 0 comments

it's amazing what a PM or an email can make you feel. i've been feeling all alone lately.. the people i was close with a few months ago have drifted away from me.. and now i'm left here wondering who to talk to.. what to do.. people change.. that's a fact.. and that's something i have to accept. growing up as an only child teaches you a lot of being lonely and being able to trust people. i know my parents will be there for me no matter what.. but besides my parents.. my close friends have become family to me.. so it's hard when those people that you think will be there, are slowly drifting away *sighs* well anyways.. i was procrastinating as usual and noticed someone sent me a message on myspace.com. most of the time they're randoms wanting to add you, so i don't really pay much attention + usually ignore it, but this time, the name looked really familiar, so i went + read the message.. and it was a very good friend that i grew up with. i haven't seen her in years!! and it was great getting that message from her.

sometimes you feel alone, no one's there.. you think sending a simple hello doesn't make a differnece.. but that small message from my friend made a difference.

posted by caroline @ 11:51 pm 3 comments

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character .
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

posted by caroline @ 1:39 pm 0 comments

posted by caroline @ 12:03 am 0 comments

it feels so good to have d&m's.. i just had one with ella.. i gave her an update on what's been happening with my life.. we talked about a lot of things.. mainly about relationships. it's hard when the people that are close to you are slowly drifting away coz they're in a r'ship or getting involved.. it seems like i'm left behind. i'm not saying i want to be in one right now, but i do go through lonely times when i feel like i'm not worthy or i'm not good enough to be in one. but in the end i just have to trust in Him. only His timing is the best.. and He knows who's best for me.

life is hard.. no one said it would be easy.. but He would never put you in a situation you can't get out. sometimes i wonder why He places certain issues in my life. at the moment.. it's dealing with r'ships. i see my friends starting new r'ships, falling into one, moving on in their r'ships. and here i am. never had been in a r'ship. am i scared i will never find mr right? yeah.. everyday! but i can't let that get in the way of living my life the way He wants me to live. ci esther said that i should enjoy my single life.. coz this is the only chance to do what i want, and to draw closer to Him.

i'm glad that you had the courage to talk about it. i know it wasn't the easiest thing for you to do, but it meant a lot to me. it gave peace inside of me.. i wouldn't have thought that i could have peace. thank you + You.

posted by caroline @ 12:41 am 0 comments

gah.. my hair is wet + i'm cold.. lol.. well i just got home from cell. tonight we had a praise + worship night instead of edification. it was just so good to be in worship + not think about anything else.. just to be able to focus on Him alone. i was asking to have peace in my heart.. haven't had peace inside of me for a while. even though if you have peace inside, it doesn't mean that you have no problems or issues.. far from it actually.. but i remembered what jess shared a few weeks ago, she said just coz we have peace doesn't mean our lives are perfect.. it just means you don't let those problems/issues get in the way and that you are content with your life. and also what fwanklin shared a few weeks ago, that we shouldn't let our circumstances get in the way of how we are.. and that is so true.. that's something i have to overcome.

posted by caroline @ 11:41 pm 0 comments

When I fall, He lifts me up
When I fail, He forgives
When I am weak, He is strong
When I am lost, He is the way
When I am afraid, He is my courage
When I stumble, He steadies me
When I am hurt, He heals me
When I am broken, He mends me
When I am blind, He leads me
When I am hungry, He feeds me
When I face trials, He is with me
When I face persecution, He shields me
When I face problems, He comforts me
When I face loss, He provides for me
When I face Death, He carries me Home

posted by caroline @ 1:43 pm 0 comments

There's a Right Time for Everything
There's an opportune time to do things, a right time for everything on the earth:

A right time for birth and another for death,
A right time to plant and another to reap,
A right time to kill and another to heal,
A right time to destroy and another to construct,
A right time to cry and another to laugh,
A right time to lament and another to cheer,
A right time to make love and another to abstain,
A right time to embrace and another to part,
A right time to search and another to count your losses,
A right time to hold on and another to let go,
A right time to rip out and another to mend,
A right time to shut up and another to speak up,
A right time to love and another to hate,
A right time to wage war and another to make peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 ( msg)

posted by caroline @ 9:41 pm 0 comments